Thanks to body positivity, I went from hating my reflection to learning to love myself — I even landed my dream job.
Working at Revelist these last two years, I've become a more public figure in the body-positive community. My job has helped me talk about confidence and self-love, and it's introduced me to the radical idea of not hating yourself because you're fat. It helped me put all my self-image issues behind me.
Or so I thought.
Then I started having bad days more often than I could ignore.
I wasn't loving myself "at all times, no matter what," like I was prescribing to everyone else. The self-love goggles were off and I was back to seeing those imperfections.
Receiving thousands of messages from the people who followed me made me feel guilty when I was having a bad day.
My message of loving yourself no matter what began to feel like a lie.
How could I allow myself to have bad days when I was trying to teach others to love themselves? I felt a lot of pressure to make myself feel better.