Ariana Grande
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Ariana Grande is currently in between headlining sets at Coachella on top of being in the middle of her Sweetener world tour. It's safe to say that she's staying busy these days, but if it means she's out onstage performing for her fans, that's definitely a good thing... right? 

Well, it appears that Grande herself isn't so sure if her demanding performance schedule is such a great idea. On Thursday, a fan tweeted at the superstar, saying: "Music is your therapy, and I love seeing it heal you."

Ari's response surprised many people, and fans reached out to let her know that she should prioritize her well-being before anything else. 

It's no secret that Ariana Grande has been through a lot.

She kicked off her Sweetener world tour last month, which marked her return to the touring circuit. At the time, she hadn't been on the road since her Dangerous Woman tour back in 2017, which was temporarily put on hold following a terrorist bombing at the end of her show in Manchester, England.

Ari recently opened up about her PTSD from the incident. 

According to the American Psychiatry Association, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is "a psychiatric disorder that can occur in people who have experienced or witnessed a traumatic event such as a natural disaster, a serious accident, a terrorist act, war/combat, rape, or other violent personal assault."

She shared this private message with a friend on her Instagram Stories.

In one of the images, we can see the differences between a regular brain and a brain suffering from PTSD. Next, we see that she shared photos of her own brain scans, and it's quite shocking. Her brain is actually lit up with even more affected spots than the actual PTSD brain photo. 

"Hilarious and terrifying," she remarked about the photo.

She's previously mentioned how hard it is to be honest about her mental health struggles.

"It feels so silly because I feel like the luckiest, most blessed girl in the world, so I almost feel guilty that I have [anxiety] because it’s just in your head and it’s just so crazy how powerful it is, no matter how good things are, it can totally change everything," Grande told Rolling Stone in 2018.

However, she's also revealed that music has been a huge help for her.

Before she hit the road for her Sweetener tour, she took to Instagram to share what had been weighing on her mind. 

She said in part: "About to embark on my third tour and am for sure deep as f*** in my feelings. and getting my period so.... this is probably gonna be too much. but i just want to say how grateful i am for my life, for the people in it, for the ups and challenges, for the laughter and the pain, for this music and for the lifelong friendships i’ve made thru making it."

Earlier this week, a fan reached out to Ari. 

They told her: "Music is your therapy and I love seeing it heal you." It was definitely a kind and sweet sentiment, and it's one that Ari herself has confirmed is true. Music has obviously been an instrumental part of helping her get through all of the ups and downs she's faced in recent years.

But things weren't quite as they seemed.

In a tweet that has since been deleted, she responded to the fan in a somewhat surprising (but still incredibly honest and heartfelt) way. 

"Making it is healing," she explained. "Performing it is like reliving it all over again and it is hell." Shortly after, she chose to delete the tweet.

Here's a screenshot from the fan.

On the topic of touring, Grande revealed even more: "I don't think it is [healthy]. It's been v hard. I have sm on my mind and it's so heavy and no energy to process or work thru any of it but I'm trying hard. And I have the twins. And seeing you all is so nice. But it's hard emotionally. I wish it were a year ago. I'd give anything."

Naturally, fans expressed their concern.

When Ari said that she "just feel[s] empty," many people let her know that her number one priority needs to be herself above anything else, including touring.

One person wrote: "Love u forever. take ur time. we'll always be here for you." Someone echoed those words: "We understand and only want what’s best for you, so please take your time. i hope u feel better soon, i love u so so much."

Hopefully Ari can take the time she needs to process and heal. 

Even though she said that ending her Sweetener tour isn't going to happen, likely because she doesn't want to disappoint fans, they seem understanding enough that they would totally support whatever decision she makes. And at the end of the day, taking care of yourself is always the most important priority.