Demi Lovato documentary
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The long-awaited Demi Lovato documentary Dancing With the Devil premiered on YouTube last night, with the star further bearing her soul for the world. In her most transparent moments to date, Lovato details the intricacies of that almost fateful overdose and how she's been coping since. Check out what the first two episodes revealed ahead. 

'Losing Control'

In episode one, Lovato delves deep into the details of her eating disorder. Lovato elaborates on how bringing in a slew of nutritionists, dietitians, friends, and team members made her even more miserable. “I feel like decisions have been made for me, more so than I’ve made decisions for myself,” she went on to say.

She also details a relapse that took place just a month after celebrating six months of sobriety. What began with a bottle of wine in 2018, quickly spiraled into a night of drugs that Lovato admits she hadn't even tried before. “That night I did drugs I’d never done before,” Demi recalls. “I’d never done meth before. I mixed it with molly, coke, weed, alcohol, oxycodone, and that alone should have killed me.”

And finally, she remembers the evening of that almost fatal overdose, revealing that at the time, her closest friends and family were unaware that she was abusing hard drugs again. After telling her friend Dani Vitale that night that she was going to sleep, they grew concerned. “We were halfway away from the house and we pulled over, and I look at my friend Janelle and I said, 'Do you feel weird,' and she says, 'I feel weird. Should we have stayed?' And I’m like, 'What is she going to do? She’s going to go to bed. No, she’s fine.'”

'5 Minutes From Death'

Following episode one, the aftermath of the 2018 overdose unfolds. She reveals that her then assistant Jordan Jackson is the one who found her. Jackson recounts the terrifying discovery. “There was one point when she turned blue — her whole body completely turned blue," she says. "I was just, like, she’s dead for sure. It was the craziest thing I’ve ever seen." 

Her condition got progressively worse as time went on. She suffered three strokes, a heart attack, and brain damage from the strokes. Lovato shared that had 5 to 10 more minutes went by undiscovered, she likely would have lost her life. But that wasn't all. Due to the brain damage, Lovato was legally blind for two months. “Sometimes when I go to pour a glass of water, I totally miss the cup because I can’t see it anymore,” she shared. 

To make matters worse, Lovato was allegedly sexually assaulted by her drug dealer on the night of the overdose. “There was one flash I had of him on top of me,” she shares, revealing that it wasn't until a month later that it registered that she'd be taken advantage of. 

Episode three of Dancing With the Devil will stream on YouTube beginning March 30.