Jessica Simpson Goes Makeup-Free For ‘Glamour’ And Reveals Addiction Struggle
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Content note: This story contains discussion of substance abuse disorder, addiction, and abuse.

Are you sitting down? Glamour has just unveiled its new cover star, Jessica Simpson, in an extraordinary makeup-free photo. It's the most honest and raw we've ever seen her, and she carries that honesty into her upcoming memoir, Open Book. As part of Simpson's feature,Glamour has posted an excerpt from the book, and it's an eye-opening look into her struggles behind the public eye. Get ready to see Simpson in an entirely different light.

But first, this incredible magazine cover.

On Instagram, Glamour shared a video from the cover photo shoot. In the video, Simpson goes from glam to no-makeup makeup to completely makeup-free. Glamour calls her book "shocking, brutally honest, even uncomfortable at times," and that Simpson "bravely confronts everything from addiction to abuse."

Simpson describes her journey through addiction.

"It was 7:30 in the morning and I’d already had a drink," she writes. "I always had a glittercup in reach at home. That’s what I called the shiny tumblers filled with vodka and flavored Perrier. At that time, the flavor was mostly strawberry, but by then I didn’t care what it tasted like. I just needed a drink every morning because I had the shakes." Simpson is referring to alcohol withdrawal tremors, which are a symptom of chronic alcohol abuse

"I knew I was falling apart, but I had to look like a good mom who was present for her children," she continues."

Her "rock bottom" came during Halloween.

Simpson describes the moment when she realized that she was experiencing symptoms of alcoholism. "Slowly, I fell to a sitting position, put down my glitter cup, and slumped down to lie on the stone floor of my entryway. On my back, I looked up at the vaulted ceiling, focusing on the chandelier as tears fell," she writes, with raw honesty.

"All the feelings I had been suppressing washed over me in a rush and I was drowning in them. My world was rotating around me so fast that I didn’t have any clue as to how to control it."

Later that day ...

Her house manager, Randy, discovered her lying down on the floor. She assured him she was OK, and proceeded to get ready for her annual Halloween party and trick-or-treating with her kids.

"I turned and went upstairs to my room. I didn’t care if I had a house full of guests. I always put so much pressure on myself to have these parties. Now it all felt so pointless," she writes. "I took an Ambien. Maybe two. It was a security pill to me—no matter how tired I was, I was terrified of being awake in bed. I knew exactly why I was always so afraid, but that didn’t mean I was ever going to do anything about it."

The next day, Simpson confronted her addiction.

When Simpson woke up the next morning, her friends came over. It was then that, together, they discussed her drinking, and how it was unhealthy, in a revealing exchange. She recalls:

"Cee gave me a sharp, direct, 'Why do think you feel awful?'

'Because I wasn’t present?' I said, like I was guessing at a math problem.

'And why weren’t you present?' she said.

I knew that one. 'Because I probably drank too much?'

'Probably?' CaCee asked. 'Jess, why do you think you drank too much? Do you think you’ve been drinking too much a lot of days?'

'Yes,' I blurted. 'I need to stop. Something’s gotta stop. And if it’s the alcohol that’s doing this and making things worse, then I quit.'"

Simpson chose to go into recovery.

As anyone struggling with substance abuse disorder and/or alcoholism knows, this first part of recovery is acknowledging that you need treatment. After Simpson made the initial decision to quit drinking, her friends encouraged to seek professional care. This required her to face up to the challenges that contributed to her alcoholism.

"I had deeper problems than alcohol, and I couldn’t resolve the problem until I threw away the crutch," she writes, acknowledging that alcohol was an unhealthy coping mechanism. "Once I was on the phone with the doctor, I started in with a complete play-by-play of all my life’s traumas. The sexual abuse I suffered in childhood, and the abusive, obsessive relationships I clung to in adulthood...And the work began. To walk forward through my anxiety, I first had to look back to understand what pain I was running from, and what I was trying to hide."

You can read the full excerpt here.

Note: If you or any of your loved ones are struggling with substance abuse, you can always reach out to the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA) by calling their confidential 24/7 hotline at 1-800-662-HELP (4357)