An influencer with nearly 200,000 followers on Instagram admitted that industry pressure to stay thin drove her to maintain a diet of only cigarettes, cocaine, black coffee, and tiny tapas. 

Ruby Matthews, a 25-year-old Australian model and blogger, allowed her fans to have an intimate Q&A session with her. When a fan asked her how she kept such a slim body before she had her two children, she revealed the heartbreaking truth. 

Fortunately, people were supportive of Matthews' shocking honesty. The mother also called for more body positivity and acceptance of models and women of all different sizes. 

Meet Ruby Matthews. 

Matthews is an Australian model and blogger. She has almost 200,000 followers on Instagram. In a recent Q&A with her followers, Matthews got very real. 

People wanted to know: How did Matthews stay so thin before she had her kids? 

The 25-year-old did not shy away from the uncomfortable truth: She was an addict. 

“I did a lot of cocaine, like a lot,” she said in the Instagram video. “So basically I just smoked cigarettes, had long blacks, and did coke. And in between, had the tapas. Like my life was tapas and cocaine.”

A full-blown addiction.

“That sounds nice,” Matthews said in jest before identifying it as a serious “addiction.”

“A lot of people never really understood like how I could eat and still be so thin. But I guess it’s pretty easy to hide an addiction,” she said. 

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“Like people don’t really realize how easy it is to hide something. Whether it’s addiction, depression, anxiety.” 

Matthews also got honest about the fact that her addiction and disordered eating weren't uncommon. The mother believes the influencer industry pressures young women into using unhealthy means to stay thin. 

Matthews is doing much better now.

The mother decided to change her lifestyle when she became pregnant with her first child. She even said she has no desire to ever be that thin again. We can't blame her considering what it took to get her body that way. 

You can change for the better. 

"What a difference 4 and a bit Years make. I was pretty tiny here, I actually have no desire to look like that ever again. The modeling industry is a tuff industry with the expectation of you having to look a certain way," Matthews said on Instagram. 

Women come in all different shapes and sizes.

"Slowly I see small changes, but I think think it’s crazy we even use the word 'plus-size model' like what the actual f*ck ! Can’t we just have models of all shapes and sizes?"

Matthews' followers were supportive of her honesty. 

"Loved you then, love you now! Always have always will. But definitely glad you were honest about the coke because it’s so true, 99.9% of bodies do not look that thin naturally, people should at least be honest on why they looks like that. I’m so glad you are living a better life now. I can totally relate, I used to be a partier and I don’t regret those times cuz they were fun but living a clean healthy life now is so much better."

"You are amazing!!!. In a world where everyone is always trying to project that they are “perfect” you are a breath of fresh air. Thanks for keeping it real."

"I think you are gorgeous in any size!! I need this inspiration, as I am unhappy with my body.. I always feel like I need to be thinner no matter what and won’t listen to people when they tell me otherwise .. it’s all In my head, I’ve never actually been bullied or told I was fat I’ve done it to myself ...To have someone I look up to think this isn’t desirable makes me feel a tad better !! Thank you for your honesty some of us girls really need it."

Don't be afraid to ask for help.

If you or someone you know is struggling with an eating disorder, please contact the National Eating Disorder Association. The NEDA Helpline is available Monday through Thursday from 9 a.m. to 9 p.m ET, and Friday from 9 a.m. to 5 p.m. ET. Please call 800-931-2237.