One of the most frequently-asked questions a Victoria's Secret model gets is about how she obtained her "perfect" body. Some talk about exercise, while others mention diets. Some, however, insist they eat whatever they want. Regardless, it's such a tired, old question and besides, every body is an angel wings-worthy body.
One Victoria's Secret model has had enough of the BS and is calling out the problematic things she said in the past about her body (and the advice she gave others about theirs).
She revealed that she maintained her physique through unhealthy eating habits and overexercising.
"When I claimed that I ate loads, I thought that I did," she wrote. "I would fill up on foods that were low calorie, and think that I was eating a healthy balanced diet.
She also revealed she was training two to three hours a day. However, food was always a place of worry and fear.
"If someone offered me a piece of fruit to eat, I would become so anxious and fearful at the thought of having to eat it (something unplanned) that I would nearly be sick with worry," she stated. "And I couldn’t calm down my anxiety until I had completed my training for the day. If I had a 5am call time, I would be in the gym at 3:30am. If my flight landed at 8pm, I would be in the gym at 9pm."
Malcolm revealed that she was sharing tips and tricks while struggling with body dysmorphia.
"I would eat such an extreme diet, and train so hard because I would look in the mirror and see someone who needed to lose weight looking back at me," she said. "When I would give interviews and discuss my eating habits I truly believed that eating predominately vegetables and protein shakes was OK. Obviously this is not OK. I am sorry for being so public about damaging eating habits."
When she finally chose to start eating healthy again, Malcolm revealed it was an uphill battle.
"Aware of my previous habits of over exercising, I did not let myself train beyond walking for a few months," she wrote. "And it was torturous. But as the weight came on, the anxiety quickly swelled to a deafening crescendo, and then began to slowly die out."
"Over consistent work and time I found myself actually liking what I saw in the mirror," she continued. "Even though Bridget from one and a half years ago would have been horrified that I had ‘left myself go’. For the first time what I am seeing in the mirror is actually my reflection looking back at me. And for the first time that I can remember, I like my body."
Malcolm finished her post with a heartfelt apology.
"I said some things in the media that make me cringe now," she wrote. "Being completely at odds with what I saw in the mirror and who I thought I was led me down a dark path of denial. I am not making excuses for the past — far from it. I just wanted to share with you all a little of how twisted my mind was, at the time of talking about my diet."
We're so proud of Malcolm for having the courage to talk about her journey and for revealing that not all diet tips are coming from a safe place.